Randomness of Mine

00.02, in the middle of the night.
Many tasks, assignments, materials to learn for final exam........ worries.
My sister has already fallen asleep in the bed.
But i'm glad, because couple hours ago, i just got a new insight/point of view/perspective about life. Weird. I know. But have you ever met a similar case like mine? It is hard to explain. The insight just suddenly came to my mind and it was very vivid. In my mother of tounge -indonesian-, it's called "hidayah". This insight makes me feel more enjoyable to live and give me strength to face many problems (which is had by everybody). It makes a problem look smaller. It helps me to look in a bigger view so anything on it looks smaller. I'm glad. I'm grateful.

jati diri

apa sih itu jati diri?
jati diri itu perlu emang dicari?? gimana kita bisa tau pasti kalau itu jati diri kita yg sebenernya? jati diri bisa berubah? jati diri yg kaya apa yg bisa diasumsikan baik untuk kita? apakah standar baik jati diri setiap orang sama? gw bingung. ga ngerti. apakah jati diri seseorang bisa dibilang salah? tapi gmn kalo emg itu jati diri dia sbenernya? apa harus dipaksakan berubah? berarti itu bukan jati diri dia yg sesungguhnya dong? dan dimana sih tempat yg paling baik untuk mencari jati diri? kapan kita bisa menemukan jati diri? boleh ga sih kita meniru jati diri orang lain? apakah itu termasuk plagiat? ada ga sih orang yg sama sekali ga punya jati diri? apakah mungkin orang itu adalah gw?

Dear God :'(

maybe i'm not old and wise enough to compare things right and give anything happened 'fair' or 'unfair' label. But let me ask You once this time, why?......... :'(

Black and white, happy and sad, rich and poor. I just haven't succed to discover Your phenomenon yet